Runnin' through ma head

So many thoughts. So many things to blog about. So many things that have happened since New Years.

-spent the last few days at home with the fam

- had tons of fun playing board games with the said above people

- said goodbye to missionary friends

- laundry, packing, and flying in a plane

- came back to PROVO.

-moved, cleaned, and unpacked for 24 hours

- said a hateful goodbye to Helaman Halls

-moved into our beautiful new apartment

-enjoyed unpacking our lives again

-started school : one class today, made dinner, organized kitchen, put up christmas tree

- sent Derek a package

-semi started to already despise the snow

-LOVED PENROSE

Just random thoughts and things that have happened the past three days.

Thought a lot about dear Derek.

I miss him terribly. Especially during the holidays. I definitely have a soft spot for him. (:

Another thing that I have thought a lot about : marriage.

Why? I don't know.

Being at BYU does that to a person. {Curse those cute bridal magazines everywhere}

Also with Derek gone I have thought about it a lot more.

Do I really wanna marry him? Is he "The One"? Should we get married when he gets back?

It just is complicated. I don't wanna get married just because we have been dating so long.

I want it to be because it is supposed to be that way.

But I do want to .

You can see why it is complicated.

I just want to be married.

Honestly.

I want that person to come home to every day and have fun with.

I want that companionship.

I want that love.

I know I am young and I don't wanna get married asap. No No.

But I do want that for sure.

Ohhhh someday. But it will be a great day lemme tell ya.

Here's to a new year!

xoxo